A Brief Addition

All right, so I will never be able to delete this blog.  All the liberals in Montrose are about to have a thrombosis.  We are so angry!

Final Entry

Yesterday, I told the town of Montrose that I was brilliant, and I think that from this blog and my book and all the stuff I have done in my life, the whole world can know that I am.  But, I have told them that I have reached the end of my tether.  The town has told me now that people have been looking for a way out.  I have told them however, that that is not what is supposed to be done.  This has been five years of untold grief and suffering for me and it really has been the suspension of my whole life.  The city and county government of Montrose and people like Dee Coram and Thomas Canfield and Chris Wilt fong never were supposed to have a way out.  They were always supposed to be punished.  It is completely irresponsible to set out to take another life and it is against human compassion to try to get someone to commit suicide.

I have told the town of Montrose that no matter whether I was brilliant or very dumb this was not supposed to have happened.  It is completely irresponsible.  At times the town of Montrose have tried to persuade me that this is really what happens to all schizophrenics.  I have told them that if it is there never was supposed to be such a thing as schizophrenia.

I have always told them that everyone who signed that court order was to be tried for treason and that the sheriff’s and police departments were to be completely investigated by the FBI along with the doctors at Montrose Memorial Hospital.   I have told them that I would accept nothing less.  Now the whole planet has a weak to get the job done or I will delete this blog this time and take Terrence Clark Wilson’s book off of the market and will probably just do what the whole planet seems to want and commit suicide.

I don’t see a reason to live in a world where people cannot be responsible.  I guess this is what happens when the world gets this way.  Brilliant lives get wiped out and the whole planet just goes right on becoming more irresponsible and dumber.

Truth

Last spring, I looked

at an iris growing

by the sidewalk

fleur de lis so beautiful

and I said,

“This is truth.”

I have read the words

of Henry David Thoreau

in Walden

the man living

so simply

and I have said,

“This is truth.”

I have thought about

the life of Harriet Tubman

and those of

her counterparts

that cried for freedom

and I have said,

“This is truth.”

Today, I read

in St John the words

“I am the way, the truth,

and the life: no man

cometh unto the Father,

but by me.”

and I said,

“This is truth.”

All of my life I have looked

into my mothers eyes

and listened to the things

she told me

and watched her example

and I say today,

“This is truth.”

A Good Thing to Do

What Now?

Well, after another round of lies, I have decided that the President did not get or at least he did not read my letter, because I can’t believe that the President is so impotent the he can not do something against a city and county government.  Nor have I ever heard of a President who can’t take quick, clear, decisive action when there is a crisis within the boarders of his nation.

I know that it is true that I might not be as smart as some of the voices of Montrose have led me to believe.  I do know, however, that I have a lot of wisdom and knowledge and I have been trying to share some of it with the world here on Terrence Clark Wilson’s blog and the blog at http://abnormalpsychology.wordpress.com.  I have been hampered from sharing as much of it as I would like by these psychopaths here in Montrose.

I have no real way of knowing how well read this blog is, because the only comments I have been able to read were a few spam comments which I felt I had to delete, the two from my niece, and one that I put on here myself.  The way it usually appears on google it looks well read and once again the voices have told me that it is the most popular blog on the planet.  But, the voices have also told me that the colleges and universities were upset by what has happened to me.  I have yet to see, however, any action on their part.

I would like to believe that my own college professors, who I loved dearly, are upset.  But, I have no real way of knowing if they even know about this and the same goes for my friends who were students at Adams State College when I was there.  I would also like to believe that I have friends even in this town who are upset, but they too seem to be impotent.

Regardless of what my I.Q. is or whether or not the president has read my letter, I believe the President should be concerned about every responsible, non-criminal citizen and I certainly feel that he should be concerned about a whole city and county.  So I sure wish there was someone with more influence than I have who would make an appeal to him.

I also wish that the world would get my message that psychopaths like these ones are not to be tolerated.

What These Psychopaths Here in My Trailercourt Are Telling Me

Much of what the voices of Montrose are telling me is told to me by some of the psychopaths that are living in here in this trailercourt where I live.  These will tell me some of what the rest of the town says and some of what the psychopaths say.  They really like to take what the rest of the town says and mix it with some stuff from the psychopaths because they still haven’t got a grip on the knowledge and wisdom I have shared.

What they are telling me now is that the city and county government and the older cops on the sheriff’s and police force have realized that they are going to have to give up.  The younger psychopaths, however, are feeling that there is going to have to be something more they can do for themselves.

These younger psychopaths all grew up in here under Thomas Canfield culture, have always associated with the ones who grew up just like them, and have never really had much contact with reality to even have any understanding of it.  They are all terribly under educated.  Who knows what they might do.

I am so worried about my friends and family in here.

Some More of Today’s Thoughts in a Poem

Why?

It rings in my mind now,

the way it rang in my mothers ears

when I was a child haunting her steps.

You requested of me something

I couldn’t acquiesce to at the time.

You just asked but you didn’t make

your intentions clear.

I was hoping you’d come back to me

and say something more.

Then I was hoping our paths would cross again.

Why didn’t they?

I did think I met you again once,

but you didn’t even speak to me

and you gave a different name

to the others at the potluck.

So maybe it wasn’t you?

You had told me I was an ‘old soul.’

Now I’d like to meet you

and find out if you meant it.

But now I am trapped by these

horrible psychopaths

in an endless nightmare

and I am beginning to wonder

if it could even make any difference

if you did mean it.

Why?

Why does it have to be this way?

Tennesee Williams

Tennnesee Williams was a gay American playwright, who penned such great American plays as A Streetcar Named Desire and The Glass Menagerie.  The Glass Menagerie contains events which are very similar to some of what happened in Williams’ own youth, which was troubled.  In later years, Williams came to live in New Orleans.  The man was known not only for his plays but also for his penchant for increasingly younger men.

My Quandry

I sent a letter to U.S. President Barrack Obama on the Thursday before Thanksgiving.  If the President will not read my letter like the voices of Montrose have told me he would, then I wish they would correct themselves and I wish someone who the president will pay attention to would contact him.  If the President did read my letter I wish he would make a quick, clear, and decisive decision and take quick, clear, and decisive action like I asked him to.  I am at the end of my rope with this and I think some of the other people in Montrose are too.  These are our lives.  We have lost our friends.   We are mad.

What I Am Thinking About What the Voices of Montrose Are Telling Me

The voices of Montrose have told me many things.  They have told me that the reason I am getting know money out of my book is because the city and county government of Montrose had a contract out with Outskirts and that they also have ones with google and wordpress and this is part of the reason I am unable to read the comments on my blogs.  Now, they are trying to tell me that my difficulty and the problems with Montrose’s city and county government are being taken to President Obama.  This is really what I have always wanted, but the people of Montrose have some reservations about it and so do I really.

Other places on this blog I have tried to convey that the Montrose Regional Library is priceless to me as are its employees.  I have also tried to convey that the Midwestern Colorado Mental Health Center has been invaluable to me and that it’s counselors have greatly furthered my education in psychology.  Now I and the rest of the community are concerned that if they take this to President Obama the Mental Health Center and its employees would be in jeopardy.  I have tried to convey to every one in Montrose how pissed I would be if the mental health center, the library, or my psychiatrist, Paula Trautner were held in anyway responsible.

Peg Mewes at Montrose County Health and Human Services is a friend of my sister Carol and I have been friendly with her son Adam.  I am aware that Health and Human services has been guilty of doing favors for the sheriff’s and the police.  However, I do not believe that Peg Mewes is a bad person.  I know the whole town except for the psychopaths are concerned about her.

Rosemary Murphy, the county treasurer, is a responsible person, a good  accountant, someone I like, and that she has tried to the best of her ability to keep herself clear of the corruption in this local government.

There are also many other responsible people in this town who could be liable and this is not what we want.

Even I have trusted some of the psychopaths sometimes even though I am a good judge of character.  I do not feel that people should be held responsible for wanting to keep their jobs and for misplaced trust.

Many of the voices have told me that they are trying to get the city and county government to have their contracts nullified and resign their positions and I have been hoping they were listening and trying to convince them of the same thing.  However, I have always known that we could never succeed at this because it is impossible to bring psychopaths to the place of repentance.  There has been some talk of Charles Manson and the way he acted at his execution.  I have told the people of Montrose that this is exactly the way these psychopaths would respond to any form of punishment.  So I know that if I am ever to have a way out the federal government must intervene.  But I hope the federal government will be good enough to confine punishment to the psychopaths and not to the responsible people.

The rest of the town knows that President Obama is not like this city and county government but the city and county government thinks he is; so he will stand up for them.  We have tried to explain to them that President Obama puts in sixteen hour days and does not feel that his life is supposed to be easy like they do.  They just don’t really get us.